When stumbling into failure (or sometimes sprinting into it), it becomes imperative to deep dive into a reflection. Bluntly, my no fap goal (originally written here) failed miserably. On a positive note, I have learned something from the experience. This post forges a reflection. Read on if you care to know how I will improve next time.
Upon reflection, most of my failures stemmed from being in the shower; for some reason, I enjoy masturbating with steaming water dripping onto my dick. Mornings were usually the most difficult, in the evenings I would feel to raw to the bone tired from educating all day to really care about striking the dragon.
Stress contributes to the failure as well. Whenever an argument with my girlfriend would ensue, my hormones would pitter-patter; and an explosion would need to be released from within! Sadly, I learned fapping is a huge stress reliever for me (and it is an unhealthy one at that).
Time frame was another challenge– the longest I lasted was two days during this goal set up. In the past, I have gone more than 5 weeks without masturbating. This includes not looking at pornography, and no sexual intercourse. Find out why I don’t have sex with my girlfriend after 6 months here.
Tracking progress in a calendar worked well for a few days, but then I was not consistent with it at all for it to really have an influence on me. For next time, I will try to not fap by channeling my negative energy into something positive is paramount; I think reading and writing can both be stress relievers for me. In the past, reading has proven to be an excellent outlet for negative energy, it has gotten me through many moments of stress. Understanding when I am stressed out is also another important factor to consider.
Overall, I am not pleased at all with my progress. Knowing that improvements can be made (example: further lean on my writing habit as a means to release stress) will only further develop my skillset and help me achieve my goals.
